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오늘도니생각에잠못이뤄술로맘을달래고있어,,우리축복이잘지내고있지,,?엄만하루하루맘이너무힘들어살기힘들단다,,,
왜이렇게바보같이사는지,,,왜잊지못하고이렇게힘들어하는지,,,,
살고싶지않아너무너의곁으로가고싶은데,,,,사는거보다죽는게더힘들구나...우리축복이가엄마빨리데려가지,,우리축복이가엄마가아직용서도안되구밉나봐,,,엄마안데려가는거보니,,,,
축복아,,,엄마하루하루니생각에,,,너희아빠생각에너무힘들구나,,,
오늘 길을가는데,,,임산부들과아기들을보는순간엄마맘이울컥하구맘이찢어지는줄알았어,,,,
우리축복일보내지않았음엄마뱃속에우리아가가살아숨쉬고있었을텐데하는생각에맘이더찢어지구아파와,,,,
축복아,,,너희아빤절대엄마에게돌아오지않겠지,,,,?
하루빨리돌아와서우리아가다시만나야되는데,,,,,너희아빠가맘을돌리지가않는구나,,,,너희아빠가안돌아온다면엄만,,,,그누구도만나기싫구만날자신도없어,,,,너희아빠가안돌아온다면우리축복이를만날수가없을텐데정말큰일이다,,,,
축복아,,우리아가다시만날수있게,,,우리축복이가너희아빠맘좀돌려줘,,,,
너를잃고하루하루숨쉬는거조차엄만너무힘들어,,,
아빠와헤어졌을때,,,우리아가가곁에있어줘서너무든든했는데,,,,,
이젠우리아가마져없어서고통이그몇배구나,,,,
너희아빤이런엄마맘도몰라주구,,,,정말너무힘들어,,,
우리아가다시와야하는데,,,이못난엄마에게다시돌아와야하는데,,,,,
너희아빠가점점멀어져서너무슬프다,,,,
죽는건왜이렇게힘든지,,,,,,축복이가엄마아직용서안했나봐,,,,엄마안데리러오는거보니,,,,,
축복아,,,미안해,,,엄마가넘미안해,,,,,널끝까지지켰어야했는데,,,,,
정말미안해,,,,
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